From Inside to Out

When the foundation of your life is invested in the dazzling and disturbing illusion that anything is “out there”… it SHOWS [on the “outside”] like a rescue flare in the wilderness… if anyone is there to see it.
Those who are viewing you from the “outside” will tend to avoid you or join you on your top-speed freight train running out of tracks.
If you’re lucky, the rare honest person may erect a billboard, fly a banner in the sky, or rarest yet: tell you to your face that you have inverted the mechanics of life to cause yourself unnecessary suffering.
…Because of your assumption, however, you’re more likely to see a vagrant, an enemy, or nothing at all, than you are to recognize you are in the presence of an angel opening a door to Heaven.
The chances that you will viciously attack the loving messenger who carries your map to freedom, are also very high.
You’ll experience inhumane fluctuations of highs and lows… like taking a cat on a rollercoaster.
You’ll treat urgency like a truculent boy-king who promises endless favor and riches for your obedience, and is fully capable of —and more likely to collect your head as his own reward if he even imagines you disloyal.
You’ll tr