HELLO! My name is SPECIAL
About 5 years ago I began to have an intuitive desire to sit in ceremony with a kind of sacred medicine, I did not know what at the time.
I honestly do not know exactly where I even got the idea that people did "drugs" in ceremonies... maybe I heard of a native person, who could sell people mushrooms legally as a cultural right to guide people in their journeys; but if I recall the person really just sold mushrooms?
Anyway, I had this idea.
And it wasn't mushrooms either, it was SOMETHING ELSE.
I began making two blankets, that later I would bring with me to Ayahuasca ceremony, and also knitting a sweater that I later found out the patterns were common images of visions people had of the sacred medicine vine.
Overall, I did 11 ceremonies over 18months, but really, I got the most information for myself in the first weekend, and especially the second night I sat with the medicine.
Right here I want to say that I am not recommending YOU do medicine ceremony.
EVERY SINGLE TIME I sat with the medicine, at the end of the night I got the message from my spirit CRYSTAL CLEAR that I did not NEED to drink it, and that my experiences when I did drink it were no different than my life itself.
I personally feel I took it waaaaay too far with 11 ceremonies, and that I was mostly being called to sit just those first two ceremonies in the first weekend.
The people I was working with were very clear that if the medicine was correct for you, you would be clearly invited, as I was. However, there was no written invitation for 11! haha!
I start my story with the mysterious sense I had and the art I created, unknowingly connected, to demonstrate that I was called, though it really means nothing in comparison to anyone else and how they decide to sit in ceremony or NOT.
It is a totally personal choice and experience. I feel very passionate about also having integration support after your journeys, if you would like support with this for yourself, please contact me and we can explore if I'm the right person to help you, or I can also refer you to someone. ************
Okay... now to the little piece of my story I'd like to share with you about "Special"
The second night I was initiated into... well, INITIATION itself. I was shown viscerally how it works which is:
Spirit gives you a gift.